sadness
Hmm. I spent most of today’s meeting distracted by my own thoughts. Those of you who know me probably already know why. I have been numb since my mom called me with the bad news Saturday night.
So many memories creep into my head at inopportune times. I know that this loss is so much bigger for many other people and my sadness for them overwhelms my heart.
The last time we spoke I didn’t say what I would have wanted to say. I know she can see into my heart now and know that, but still, it saddens me.
Someone told me today that she’s in a better place. While said with good intentions, how that falls on the ears of someone who has lost someone…it doesn’t come out how it is intended. I will never say that to someone who has lost a loved one. She may be in a better place. But her children, they are not. And will not ever be. Her parents who have to live with losing a daughter before her time, they are not in a happier place. Her sisters. No. Her friends. No. We are all in a sadder place.
